I miss him, but I can’t let myself get hurt no more.

I miss him, but I can’t let myself get hurt no more.

I see my future in him, but my heart tells me I’ll spend most of my time alone.

Doesn’t seem like a quality life for me, nice things are great but having him means so much more to me.

I left but I miss him even though he scares me it is what it is.

My body knows him very well, reminisces on how we use to tap that often!

I miss him, but I can’t let myself hurt no more.

He meant what it said, always good intentions even if they didn’t turn out to be his best yet and still they were his.

Love him, but I left him not sure he understands why but having stability and structure is so necessary for me, personally.

I gotta believe you, see I’m a submissive woman to my man and I know how to follow but I can’t be led astray.

I miss him, but I can’t let myself hurt no more.

I know, he’s looking up at his ceiling phuk’d up with me cause I’m sitting in the corner of my couch watching him.

Praying someone will love him as real as I did but they’ll get what wasn’t available to me; stability.

It’s not what I want, but he too let me go said I wasn’t happy with him so he’d rather see me happy without him.

Somehow, it doesn’t seem to be going as he said but I refuse to be a bitter resentment or bad memory to him.

I tried to make ‘em see my side and I thought he understood but now I’m not so sure.  So, I’ll do what I do best write my heart out.

God is the primary

Work is the necessity

Socializing is healthy but there has to be a work-life balance, you said I was part of your life but you gave me no space to live and because of your high-demand planned promises should never be broken, especially to me; your woman.

No hard feelings, I just wish it went better.

I saw my future in him, but my heart told me I’ll spend most of my time alone.

I miss him, but I can’t let myself get hurt no more.  I deserve more and it’s clear he’s done tyring his best and I can’t fault him for that.

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Dear Mending Heart:

Dear Mending Heart:

It’s not your fault.

Sometimes you just don’t know when to say ‘No.’

You have to realize that you’re worth more than just a romp in the moon light

Time is precious so you should be charging double, if not triple for yours and I don’t mean money – I mean time, effort and expect that you may not always be a #1 priority because God, Family and Work usually come first but you should never waiver or doubt your place.  Even more so it should never be a moment when you’re made to feel doubtful of it.

Ugly insecurities develop when your faith in your mate is compromised pending the situation it’ll come back but if the lines are crossed too many times, the point of no return arises as a clear as the sun on a sunny Sunday morning and even if you shield your eyes you still know it’s there.  Guard yourself but don’t shut down life is worth living even if they didn’t see the value in you; your God didn’t waiver nor should your faith.   Someone will see your worth as soon as you learn to see and believe that it’s there, that’s when you’ll stop settling for what’s given to you and start picking from your options.

In due time all things owed to you will come, spend less time questioning the wrong and worry about doing right.  None of us is perfect, but there’s always someone out there that’s perfect for us even if they show up just for a ‘lil while appreciate it most people never realize what they have ‘til it’s gone, anyway.  Don’t be one of those people, acknowledge your pain, identify the faults even if you think you don’t have any there’s one e.g. like sometimes we just give too much, too fast.  Or, we just never know when to speak up, despite how many times we’re wronged we never think its okay for us to speak on it but you have to realize that it is.

Stand up for yourself, you’ll feel better that you did-I know I did.

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